Self discipline fail

Seems like there's no one blogging again so I shall take matters into my own hands to self-revive this blog. Yes, I am extremely determined to do so.

You know what question I did for GP? *groans* "Thou shall not kill. Is the taking of a human life ever justified?" Why, WHY did I choose to do that question. I should've stayed away from it, I shouldn't even have considered it, however enticing the challenge may have seemed. On hindsight, even though I thought I did fairly OK for the question, I think I injected quite a significant amoung of moral judgement, which teachers hate. But I couldn't help it, I felt that I couldn't betray my own conscience and dump truckloads of information down there that I do not believe in because I have always veered towards the view that killing someone is never justified, no matter what the case may be. I thought it was simply disgusting to have to argue about the pros and cons of killing a human in order to arrive at a 'justified' conclusion. It's sick. And yet, at the same time, I couldn't pull myself away from doing this question either.

Of course, I will not do well. But I'm still proud of my work. It doesn't matter if I fail(whcih I think I will). I'm strangely proud of myself for having taken a stand for my own true opinions even though its a pretty stupid situation to do it in. I will not take the risk for this in my real exams. See, if you don't take the risk of trying new and dangerous questions now, then when are you ever going to do it? You should take the opportunity to make mistakes while the world is still willing to allow it and forgive you for it. Yeah yeah, call me foolish. Whatever. I need a whole lot more self restraint.