I really miss Sunday School :(

Greetings once again!

This is in response to Huihan's post. If you guys didn't know, I was at my friend's church yesterday being the moral support of my other non-Christian friend who wanted to visit her church :X Not a very mind-blowing experience, I actually find that their church service is largely similar to ours, give and take minor things like the sequence of certain things and the fact that she's in English service.

BUT the point here is that I really Really REALLY missed Sunday School! Yes, I truly did! You guys have no idea HOW much I look forward to Sunday School every week, it being the only lesson where I can learn without the academic pressure weighing down on me and also where I learn about stuff that's interesting and really makes me think and reflect. It's one of the few meaningful activities that are present in my life. I do treasure it(and I hope I won't have to change class next year as well). And pffft, there's no Sunday School this coming sunday because it's church camp. *sobs*

I really think we should have a class outing, like, get to know each other OUT of sunday school, you know? But well that's just my idea and if you're for it too, then keep it in mind and we'll try to bring it up during the next sunday school lesson.

I am honestly so bad at self discipline. I suck at it. I resolve to do something, but that's as far as it goes. It remains a plan, the actions don't get carried out. I always end up day dreaming, it's like an escape mechanism that automatically kicks in whenever I'm in situations where I'm unhappy or feel confined in. And it sure doesn't help that one of the things I hate doing during studying is organisation and consolidation of information. I hate fragmenting them into little sections, I hate compartmentalizing them. In fact, most teachers despise and discourage this act of separating information into clean little blocks because it hinders flexibility.

But then, they demand clear structured essays which they insist is the only way that clarity of thought and intellectual capacity can be shown on paper. And because I can never structure things properly, I end up sectioning off my bits of information from each other and hating myself for being so inflexible during essay-writing. Why is narrative writing inferior to analytical, structured writing? WHY? I actually find that the latter is the one writing style that limits your creativity, which in turn restricts your ability to think freely and properly and come up with your own opinions. Opinons that you have not because you need to show an opposing side or an 'on the other hand' in essays, but REAL opinions that you feel for and will fight for, and will defend to the very end.

Sometimes I think the entire thing contradicts itself. Actually, I still do, but let's not go there.

I need to stop digressing.

Oh, I've added one more issue to my prayer list - the ongoing genocide in Darfur, Sudan. This is the first time a genocide's ever been officially termed and acknowledged to be a genocide while it is still going on. There are humanitarian aid workers and peacekeepers trying to end it, but somehow the remoteness of the area and the lack of cooperation is proving to be a real problem. As far as I know, there's been some peace treaty or ceasefire or something along those lines that was drawn up and signed, but action hasn't really been taken. Sigh, is there really any more need to add to the destruction and suffering in this world? History really repeats itself.